-iWrote 10/05/2004 09:39:00 AM

Losing momentum

Although i'm supposed to be doing my work right now but i realised that no one commented on my blog for an extended period of time. Thus, i decided to write a new entry and update everyone about my week.

Fallen ill

Last Sunday, i mugged through the whole night till 4am, Monday morning. Woke up early to hitch a ride to sch then head over to Karen's place to rest. Was really tired and i had class at 12. But it was cancelled last minute. Anyways, when i got up, the whole room was spinning and i felt like fainting. This is the first time i felt like that in my entire life. Scared by the whole experience, i woke Karen up and she asked me to rest while she go wash up first. When she returned, the feeling did not go away. Instead, it got worse and i started to cry. I was so afraid. I didn't know what was happening to me. My health just gets worse.

Karen decided that i am not getting any better and am in no position to head to school. Thus i told her i needed to hand in my report by 5 and had to wake up at 330. I feel better when i woke up but when i wanted to get out of bed, my headache and fainting spells started again. Had no appetite and all i wanted to do was throw up. Karen offered to hand in the report for me and i gave her the directions to the lab which i had to hand it in to. During the period when she was away, i was thinking that i should've handed it in when i reached school early in the morning but then again, i thought that i will be going back to school. Sigh.

I spent most of the day sleeping. Keeping awake only worsens my condition. Took a cab home with Y (Karen's friend) and ended up throwing up gastric juices. Called Mum but she didn't pick up her hp. Guess she must have been busy in class. Called Karen and told her about it. She told me to go rest and i heeded her advice. Mum called later and told her i was sick. Went to see my family doctor the next day. She said that i was down with gastric flu but somehow i didn't feel that it was. But she is the doctor. I requested for a jub to stop me from feeling faint and throwing up. Spent Wed resting at home too. I can't believe i slept so much.

Test

Managed to attempt more than half of the questions posted to me. Hopefully am able to pass. Getting really worried about my results. I really wonder how my classmate, who is also a forward module student, can actually reach school at 1245 and say that she hasn't studied a single bit when the test is at 1. I mean isn't she worried at all?? Sigh..i feel so stressed. I want to do well and i want and hope for my friends to do well too. I'll feel that i'm being selfish and not being enough of a friend if i don't help them too. But then, i do not have an obligation to do that. But this, but that. Sigh..i'm getting a headache again..*dizzy*

Forward Module

Sometimes when i mention to my lecturer that when he sees one of the forward module students when he or she is marking attendance, he or she will see all of us. And everytime i say that, one of us is definately gonna say that it's bad for me to say such a thing. I mean what so bad about it?? We ARE forward module students. So accept it. And seeing one means seeing all isn't bad. It means all of us, forward module students, are interested in attending class whether is it just for attendance sake or sincerely wanting to attend class. Seriously speaking, I don't see anything wrong with what i say. Do you all think that there's anything wrong??

ok...i gotta go lie down...my head's spinning....sigh...